171 days left...

I am all hopped up on coffee this morning!

Something I haven't done since maybe back

in February when I still had a daycare to run-

but I forgot how easily the day goes by when

it's backed by coffee! This morning the boyfriend

wanted to share a pot before he leaves for the

weekend to go hunting.

I am on cloud 9 (he gave me roses for no reason)

and hopped up on caffeine (sp??)- wish I could go

for a run, but my little boy is here.

Today I'm doing well so far....and tomorrow

is my son's bday party- so hopefully I don't over-indulge.

Last night we went out and did pizza buffet and

ice cream for dessert...that didn't help me eat healthy.

DAMN that delicious pizza ranch buffet!!

Tonight I work, so I'm going to avoid work food like it's an illness- and hopefully I squeeze in some time to strength train and clean up a little. My dishes are getting a little out of control....

Have a great Friday!!

weight: 143.2

173 days left...

So....

Damn.

I got a little out of control on Halloween, and the next day, and Monday, and yesterday.

Grrrrrrr.

I don't do it on purpose, it's just I'm a very routine person, so if I eat healthy for a few days, and then I have a day of bad it goes for a few days until I step on the scale and go- "Shit!" and then I get back to healthy mentality. LOL

Oh well, good thing I gave myself 6 months to do this- I'm going to need it.

I'm going to post some Hallo pics, and today I hope to eat only smart (so far, so good). The boyfriend told me last night that he's going to look into the price of a "family" gym membership at his gym. Apparently his work pays for his membership up to $40- so if a family membership is $50-60 then I'd just pay the difference- which I'm super ok with doing!! :)

Hopefully that goes well, that gym has a daycare!! Then I could drop my daughter at school every morning and then hit the gym!

Okay, this is short and sweet- but I need to go clean. My house still looks like a wreck after the Halloween party we had here this weekend. Hope everyone else is doing well!

Weight: 144.6 (got to love that quick gain! lol)

goal for 11/11/09: 140 (i'll lose fast next couple of days since I won't be eating cupcakes, candy, and crap like that...)

177 days left Week 1 Day 4

HI!!!
I am doing GREAT!! :)
Yesterday I didn't get a chance to write because I was all over the place getting Halloween stuff and doing shopping, and paying bills, and fun stuff like that.

I even made some Halloween treats and DID NOT gorge. I had the SMALLEST bite of a pumpkin cookie you can imagine and that was it as far as "bad food"!!!

Today I woke up weighing in past my 'goal'....I'm SOOO thankful I lose fast!! I bought a fun little hallo costume for this evening. It's kind of scandalous. It's a little girl scout/troop girl thing. I have fun white heels I'm going to wear with it, but since I'm only 5'2" it's not SUPER short on me or anything....but will still be fun to get dressed up. :)

I won't be writing much today. Too much to do! We are having a Hallo party at the house tonight. My boyfriend, myself, sister, her man, friends with their men are coming. Hopefully it's a blast. There will be lots of crazy food....but I gave myself the ok to have 'some' today. Not binge like I'll never be able to eat again- but to have some.

I'll let you know how it goes!!! Happy H-day everyone!

weight: 136.8 (wow!!! sweet!!)

get to a goal tomorrow when I have more time to write!

179 days left... Week 1 Day 2

Hello again! I just had some tea and am feeling wide awake and refreshed. I don't know how that's possible since it's 45 degrees and raining, and my whole house just feels chilly....but I'm going to go with it. This picture is from almost 2 years ago, but I'm the same weight there as I am now, so I put it up.

I ate GREAT yesterday. I'm talking G.R.E.A.T.- At the restaurant I work at there is always super delicious food- and it's EXPENSIVE. I don't mean like $25 for steak and potatoes- I mean $30 for steak and potatoes are an extra $9 or so. Everything is ala carte. Good for tips, and I must say the food is excellent (the cooks in the back are brilliant)- but this also means that when there is extra food, or a mistake so it's given to the workers- it's really hard to pass up.
Yesterday I passed up our bacon hashbrowns, gorgonzola mac-n-cheese with lobster, strawberry cheesecake, cranberry bread w/honey butter, garlic cheese toast, and prime rib. PRIME RIB. I've never even gotten to try the prime rib at our restaurant yet and there was my chance to do it for free- and I didn't.

I'm proud of myself, but at the same time it was HARD. I left my house at 430- didn't get off work until almost 1030, so I was avoiding all this delicious food during my body's usual time to eat dinner!

Oh well, there will be many more days like this. At least I now have that day under my belt to show myself I can do it, and that you're ALWAYS happy afterwards that you didn't eat bad. I've NEVER eaten a huge cheat meal and then been glad for doing so. I always kick myself in the butt- and yesterday I had no need to do that. :)

So, things are going well being a whole day and a half into my 6 month plan. lol.

I do need to find more time to work out. Yesterday all I did was play with my kids in the backyard. I was picking them up and running around with them (that tires you FAST) and we only played for about a half-hour. I need to work out more than that! Tomorrow my goal is to get up at 7am and RUN before getting my daughter up for school. Here's hoping!

weight: 141.6

goal HIT for yesterday except my strength training was lame.

Goal for 10/29/09: don't eat bad food at work- bring some snacks with you?? and try to work out!!

Also, going to start a weekly weight goal. Yesterday I was 142.8- so my goal for NEXT Wednesday is to be 139lbs. Many of you might think that's a huge goal- but I lose fast when I'm doing everything right. On the flip side, I also gain fast off of just a bad meal or two. It's a lovely double edged sword....

lbs left to hit goal: 2.6

180 days left... Week 1 Day 1

So, I'm sitting here at my desk eating some peanuts. I like the ones that are in a shell that I have to open myself. It makes eating take longer, and there is something I like about having to "work" to get my food. Not that opening a peanut shell is really so difficult- but I like foods like that. Probably the reason I love pistachios as well...

I am on a mission. I'm pretty good when I go for something, so if you'd like to follow along while I get all healthy (aka- hopefully super sexy too...) feel free to join the ride! I am ultra-ambitious and don't have a fancy gym or tons of time, so I will be doing this the hard way.

Losing weight is not new to me. Matter-of-fact, I lost a good amount a couple of years ago.

In the above picture I am about 200 lbs and in the below I am 122.
It's this last 20+ that I've lost and regained a couple times over the last year that I'd like to go ahead and put an end to. Here is a little about me, so you can get more of a mental image.

5'2"
Current weight: 143 lbs
Highest weight: 226 (11/11/05)
Lowest weight: 118 (12/26/08)

I have a really good comfort level at about 130lbs- but I'd like to break through that and get to the teens again. I don't just want to be one of those people where I'm aiming for a "number"- I actually don't care THAT much about a number. It's how my body looks. I want to be toned, tight, and be able to wear anything I want. If I could do that at 150lbs- I would

- but last time I was in the teens, I was in pretty good shape. I want that back.

118 lbs in Dec. 08

Working out will be challenging... I don't belong to a gym, and I live in the frozen freaking tundra where running outside poses a challenge as the temps will be falling into the negatives throughout winter and even right now in "fall" it's usually between 30-40 degrees outside. Just to add to the equation, I also have two children. My youngest isn't at school, so paying someone to watch him WHILE paying for a gym membership WHILE working two jobs as a single mom is alot of extra work. Who knows though? Maybe I'll cave and do that anyway. I will just have to carve out some time somewhere... So, I just got up and fixed another snack. I peeled a couple of kiwi (s)? How do you pluralize kiwi? lol... There's another food I had to do something to before I could eat it. :) When I eat healthy- I EAT HEALTHY. I'm really good about eating as close to nature as I can. BUT- on the exact other hand- when I eat bad (as most call cheat days) I EAT SUPER CRAZY annoyingly bad. I for SOME reason, eat like I will never get another chance to have dessert, hit a drive thru, you would think that I was trying to GAIN weight if you see me on a binge. I have a terrible, terrible character flaw. It is called the 'all-or-nothing' personality. I go ALL OUT with what I do- or I don't care at all. Hopefully this attempt at health doesn't turn into 'nothing.'- though I don't think it will. I'm pretty motivated right now. Here's hoping!!! In the picture at the left is how I look now. I don't by ANY means think I'm fat- I just want to get toned, healthy, and back to my sexy jeans! :)

Everyday I will weigh in, set goals, and post other random bits of craziness. Have a lovely Wednesday!

weight: 142.8 lbs

goal for 10/28/09: find SOME time to do cardio and strength training- and don't eat CRAP at work (my job has delicious food just lingering around waiting to be eaten- not by ME anymore!)