180 days left... Week 1 Day 1

So, I'm sitting here at my desk eating some peanuts. I like the ones that are in a shell that I have to open myself. It makes eating take longer, and there is something I like about having to "work" to get my food. Not that opening a peanut shell is really so difficult- but I like foods like that. Probably the reason I love pistachios as well...

I am on a mission. I'm pretty good when I go for something, so if you'd like to follow along while I get all healthy (aka- hopefully super sexy too...) feel free to join the ride! I am ultra-ambitious and don't have a fancy gym or tons of time, so I will be doing this the hard way.

Losing weight is not new to me. Matter-of-fact, I lost a good amount a couple of years ago.

In the above picture I am about 200 lbs and in the below I am 122.
It's this last 20+ that I've lost and regained a couple times over the last year that I'd like to go ahead and put an end to. Here is a little about me, so you can get more of a mental image.

5'2"
Current weight: 143 lbs
Highest weight: 226 (11/11/05)
Lowest weight: 118 (12/26/08)

I have a really good comfort level at about 130lbs- but I'd like to break through that and get to the teens again. I don't just want to be one of those people where I'm aiming for a "number"- I actually don't care THAT much about a number. It's how my body looks. I want to be toned, tight, and be able to wear anything I want. If I could do that at 150lbs- I would

- but last time I was in the teens, I was in pretty good shape. I want that back.

118 lbs in Dec. 08

Working out will be challenging... I don't belong to a gym, and I live in the frozen freaking tundra where running outside poses a challenge as the temps will be falling into the negatives throughout winter and even right now in "fall" it's usually between 30-40 degrees outside. Just to add to the equation, I also have two children. My youngest isn't at school, so paying someone to watch him WHILE paying for a gym membership WHILE working two jobs as a single mom is alot of extra work. Who knows though? Maybe I'll cave and do that anyway. I will just have to carve out some time somewhere... So, I just got up and fixed another snack. I peeled a couple of kiwi (s)? How do you pluralize kiwi? lol... There's another food I had to do something to before I could eat it. :) When I eat healthy- I EAT HEALTHY. I'm really good about eating as close to nature as I can. BUT- on the exact other hand- when I eat bad (as most call cheat days) I EAT SUPER CRAZY annoyingly bad. I for SOME reason, eat like I will never get another chance to have dessert, hit a drive thru, you would think that I was trying to GAIN weight if you see me on a binge. I have a terrible, terrible character flaw. It is called the 'all-or-nothing' personality. I go ALL OUT with what I do- or I don't care at all. Hopefully this attempt at health doesn't turn into 'nothing.'- though I don't think it will. I'm pretty motivated right now. Here's hoping!!! In the picture at the left is how I look now. I don't by ANY means think I'm fat- I just want to get toned, healthy, and back to my sexy jeans! :)

Everyday I will weigh in, set goals, and post other random bits of craziness. Have a lovely Wednesday!

weight: 142.8 lbs

goal for 10/28/09: find SOME time to do cardio and strength training- and don't eat CRAP at work (my job has delicious food just lingering around waiting to be eaten- not by ME anymore!)